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I party till dawn,
I shop till dusk.
That's coz...
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Oh yeah anyway
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daddy sat me down and told me
its never late to learn the lesson; even if u have to fail
so long as u're willing to stand up and go on again
whatever u think u've failed is actually a success
i'm sorry
it was my fault
it is not the time to die yet so i'll move on


will do a self reflection after A lvls
to see what stupid stuff i did these 2 yrs
and what exactly went wrong so far

I've been dreaming about death recently. Random people dying or. violence, eg i tio chopped by few times and never die/i chop ppl few times bt ppl nv die. freak. some of the scenes keep coming back EVERYNIGHT. my friend was telling me that dreaming of people dying refers to you being able to put someone down finally. bt srsly theres nth and no one in my head right nw so why's people dying.
bt comparing this sorta scary dreams with the A lvl result thing. I RATHER SCARY DREAMs lol. :D


things tt happened recently:
- daddy gave me a piece of jade and claim tt grandma passed it to him.
- so i have to wear that piece of jade because grandma passed to him and he passed to me.
right tt isnt v updated.


a fried told me sth today. funny a nt? decide it urself k :D
friend: (sms e wrong person) hey katt!
wrongperson: i nt katt.
friend: (start to make friend with wrongperson and know tt wrong person's 14 or 15 yr old) wan b friend?
wrongperson: hmm. i dunno lei. i must go ask my mother if i can make friend with you first.
the next ady, wrongpersn really replied and say 'my mother allowed me to b friendz with u already'


wahhhsiao speechless. 15 yr old still ask mother if cn make friendz.

loll..

woohoo! :D yay


chy: oi y u never post my photos
me: i tot u say ur photo too many.. wahh my blog turning into chy blog liao
then chy went on to tell me about her crazah restru experience. LOL :D
this is what happened:
1. chy and family went to dian xiao er (name of a restr) for dinner
2. after dinner, chy's daddy hand his card over to chy, 'go pay money'
3. as chy's turn is nearing round the counter, chy's bro walked towards her. 'eh i wan see the credit card.'
4. chy handed the card to brother, and THEN ITS HER TURN TO PAY UP!
5. cashier: hi $104 please.
chy: har? bt i got no money lei. (showing tt sorta 'I GOT NO MMONEY WHAT U WAN ME TO DO!?')
6. stare at eachother for 8 full seconds, i bet the poor gal standing there's too shocked to say anything; while brother's standing at one corner staring at chy and gal staring at eachother.
7. brother finally decided to stop his lameness and walk to chy and the gal 'nah card'


ok and chy reminded me bout this again.
chy: immediately after prom. we go club. cn cn cn. i wan solve the mystry haha
me: see hw first la. lol. ask anliang dey all go tgt issit. i go ask think he ok de.
chy: NOO I WANNA SEE CKL. i am serious. i really wan see.
me: zzz
zzz i dunno what chy is thinking of srsly. lolll. wth. hahahas then she said this
chy: eh what if i go club then i sit at one corner READ STORY BK?
i'll reveal the answer here if we really decide to go there and do that ok. lol. siaosiao.


OMGGGGGG SHUAIIIIIGE! LOL HAHAHA OMGGGGGG
LEEHOM OMGGGG


BUT.
of all romatic stuff he could do...
WHY WASH HER HAIR ZOMGGGG.

SOME of the sch tees for me. about 50% there niah.



amos. z.
he reminded me tt i had a charac at cassi.
amos: PLAY CASS DUN PLAY DELLLLL
me: wahfreak i be noob then u can laugh at me issit
amos: *brainwashing in progress* of coz not lar u my bu lei! a mother uh must be willing to move her house 3 times for the son lei. u move from del to cass onliii. moreover u got char at cass right!
me: zzz u brainwashing me issit. wahh cannot la. liddat if we be family. I UR JUNIOR MEH!
amos: lol er sorry wan be family, lvl must be less than 10 in difference. (he lvl 140 i lvl 37 btw)
me: WTH THEN I GO THERE. BE NOOBLET!?
amos: no la.. i help u train lor. i alot real life friend there lei. ray friend oso there. JJ SENIOR OSO THERE. and my friendz got lvl 200 one leii. u at cass, u tio bully i go bully the person back. we go cass, both noob. tio bully will be bullied tgt leiii. bu!!! COME CASS
me: after A lvl then talk.


BUT theres something i realised after seeing amos' charac. LOL NO WONDER HE DOESNT WANNA CHOP HIS HAIR OFF LOL! and the way his charac is dressed... really look like amos. Z. Zz
wahsian. the more i look at it. the more amos his charac is. WAHSIAOOO.
amos: and bu uh. why ur name liddat. go create new charac name SAIBU!
me: ZZZ U IDIOT THEN U GO CREATE NEW CHARAC BE SAIKIA!


tehdah.

ultimate blurr look

Events of the day:
I saw weiqian at supermarket


details of the day:
1. woke up
2. ate cereals
3. fall alsp accidentally
4. cant rmb what else happened
5. chy called and say '25% WILL GET A ONLI LEI WE GOT CHANCE MEH'
6. ate dinner
7. saw weiqian at supermarket
8. amos say he'll be here to teach me stuff bt he isnt here
9. feel like killing amos



o.o hi

aww cute stuff

OOOOOMGGGGGGG.
my hair's standing because of the cats outside.
they're nt meowing, bt rather, making some extremely irritating WEIRD noises. zomgggggggggg.
my hair's standin'

o.O O.o o.O
so sweet

I was reading some articles and these things caught my attention:


1.
there is this section where a women talks about the confusion she had naming herself after getting married. should it be miss, ms or mrs; should her name follow after her father or her husband. the irony she observed is that a bulk of her friends stick to their father's name when they actually chose their husbands, while having no say in which daddy they wanted.


2.
One of the statements i found:
"Over the years, surveys have found that such women were seen less feminine, worse mothers, more dynamic, less attractive and better educated"
Realised that almost everything was negative? Then why is 'better education' included? Is that a gender discrimination arrrgh.
It is true that I personally feel that education is some sort more important for men, it was never in my concious that it wasn't important for women at all.


3.
57% of college students are women today. Yet, women make just 77cents for every 1 dollars men earn.


4.
The world is going so eco-friendly that even sexuality-related products are made of recycled/biodegradable materials. Yet air quality etc is going down down down the hill. What does this say about those bigger industries?


5. (non article related)
amos: WAHSIAO BU! lol i eating dinner nw. tomyam maggie with hotdog (at 11pm)
me: why don u freaking eat ur dinner earlier
amos: i had my lunch at 5 mar.
me: what were u doing in e day. u woke up at 2pm eat breakfast issit
amos: noo i woke up at 8am eat breakfast. then i go lib mug
totally stunned. amos go lib mug.


6. (non article related)
my immune system got corked up totally; so bad that my nose is getting virtually numb aldy. I then decided to do something dumb, i ate garlic. RAW garlic. bt hell garlic is more effective than sneezing med lar. my flu got alot better nw yeh. after garlic-ing.


7. (non article related)
Amos: I MUGGER STYLE LIAO! mug till MIDNIGHT!
me: u. wan. to. be. mugger?!
Amos: which is 10 min away.
*it was 11.50pm when he said he wanna mug till midnight*
srsly. tts why he saikia right. :P

Lol, someone sent me a email to wish me gdluck THANKS!


anyway random events..


1.
me: oioi. what time muz reach there
ray: 3.30. eh sian i stuck in the rain
me: wahsian i'm aldy there (at 3.00), happy walking in e rain okay. i'm stonning with my fries.
ray: WAHH I WANT! lol so early
me: u dun wan come earlier i finish e fries aldy hor.
ray: ok lor fini lor.. anyway i'm nt sure if i could make it there. maybe i'll die or something because i'm cold and hungry now
EXPLOITATION of my kind heartedness. LOL bhbb


2.
shareefa: OII I CANT GET THE ANSWER!
girish: what u filled for the answers? you use 28 instead of 28000 is it must times ... ... ...
shareefa: SHUT THE HELL UP
LOL classic sia. FIERCE!


3.
ray: *said sth*
me: u suck
girish: is tt e onli thing u know
me: yupps raymond suck is e onli thing i ever known so far
ray: eh but i'm handsome oso leiii.
OI! loll


cant rmb anymore things nw argh except that
a. A lvl is sth like 8 days away. sth liddat.
b. if e speed of me learning doesnt go like y = 10^99x curve, my dream could actually turn realistic
c. if my immunity doesnt improve, i macham lose my nose
d. if i were to go according to [this(no.6)] , sth scary is gonna happen to b.
e. there are some clothings i wouldn't mind wearing for halloweens such as:

or

but after seeing irritatingly scary pics uploaded in fb etc, i see 0.000001%chance of me stepping into clubs for halloween anytime. crap.


YAY I GOT A FREE APPLE PIE TODAY
ok dinner time byebye.

... kel wanted this...
kel: whats the most stupid thing u did!
*after 10 min*
me: i think for 10 min aldy... Z bt. i think all nt stupid enough
kel: LOL U THINK FOR 10 MINUTES FOR THAT?
well i argued that i wasnt really thinking, i was afk bt he didnt wanna believe it sian.


Lets not talk about unhappy stuff such as
- I might tio match-make me if i don't get myself a boyfriend. wth
- I dreamt that i got BCD for A lvls and teachers were shocked:'wah clever girl u screw up prelims still get BCD'. freak. BCD and clever gal. wth. NOOOOO!!! i.dun.wan.tt.to.happen.
- Amos said he had a dream ytd too and he freakingly got ACD. TOTALLY SAI FAMILY.
alright i juz talked about unhappy stuff. D:



Here's sth shocking:
AMos: WAHSIAO BU! ehh that day that qn u need me to teach u?
amos said 'need me to teach u?'
amos said 'need me to teach u?'
amos said 'need me to teach u?'
amos said 'need me to teach u?'
amos said 'need me to teach u?'



wahaha hw to sing my fair lady uh.
In e past:
CHY: wahsian y ur tan always 'tanner' than mine
me: coz i pro mar
Now:
CHY: HAHAHA U SO FAIR
me: sian


ENJOY!

O.O
WAHH TODAY = HALLOWEEN!
no wonder some of my friends were talking bout dress ups etc/go club
and i stupidly asked Garrick: 'ehh when's halloween?'
HMM halloween wasn't of my concern all the way till i realised how fun it is to look at ppl dress up/dress up. lol. so.......
once in my life time, i'd like to try it. wheeee. yar if u still rmb this by nxt yr, gimme suggestions. :D but i dun wanna dress up as ghost. ARRGH.





Testing photobucket out! :D
hahaha uploading spd alot faster nw. I had to wait sth like 5 min for ONE PIC to upload in e past. :D yay i got place to store all photos lo! Reformat com alll u wan. :P

I was supposed to be in bed now but nah i'm feeling a little emotional because my dad formatted my old laptop and i painfaully waved goodbye to all THOSE PHOTOS I STORED IN THAT COM! D: haix. Well I'm not feeling really emotional or something, just a little sad. I cant even bear to delete away unglam photos (unless they're really freaking unglam and ugly then byebye yeh). It takes time and effort to etc to take those photos, but it takes just a click to remove everything.


LUCKILY I stored some photos in my tumb drive. But some means sth like. 1%? arrgh.

why cant those roses turn into sunflower srsly

amos's drawing hahaha

HAHAHA. if u read my blog often, u know what amos' drawing.
if not, GUESS!
ans:



ELMO! lol wth my fav art piece by amos.
will take pic of more of his art pieces after A lvls. anticipate plz.

WAHHH I LOVE MUSHROOMS.


but then again those pics, i believe that i either blogged bout them before or saved them in this com instead of previous com. So in a way those photos lost are really lost. D: sadness. haix.


ARRRGH.

I'm being constantly reminded by friends who'r attached that i've been 'detached' for more than a year. da da da da da.. etc. My response to that often end up with 'i'm nt interested with guys'. In which, most chose not to believe. (Duh, obviously i'm still interested with guys lar if nt what.)


However, it is not the time for it now. I do admit that I admired one particular person for quite sometime during 'detached' period, but again even if his response was positive, I would still be back facing attachment.


Many believe that love isn't rational, perhaps it really isn't. However being engaged in a farytale like relationship is just like hanging 10m above the ground by a nano-thin string. It gives you the thrill and excitment, but if you're unlucky, it breaks and u fall. Not enough to kill you but sure it does hurt alot. Note that 10m is just an analogy. The pain you feel in a failed relationship is far worse than falling from a 10m height.


Therefore, in my opinion, having chemistry, mutual understandings and the 'feel' isn't enough for a commitment. Are you ready to answer your partner's call now and then assuming he needs someone to talk all the time? Are you sure of his personality etc, that you could stand it for the rest of your life; that even if he screams at you, you feel the love, care and concern? Taking in all his craps etc, could you?


Well do not answer the above questions if you know your crush etc less than half year or so at least. I do know that time taken to understand a person might be shortened thanks to technology. ie, you talk to him everyday, your knowledge of him increases exponentially. However, knowing one on the surface and knowing him deep inside is 2 different thing. Day-to-day life is what i considered surface. Knowing some of his dreams is what i considered as surface as well. Feeling his emotions, understanding his needs are more indept but I believe there are more to come.


I believe that it takes time to really know a person. But time doesn't mean you'll know him for sure. Did you bother to analyse his actions/words etc? Thus anyone who believe in 'trying eh luck' and decided to confess etc, 'just be friends'. Well I'm not sure how people decode it, but what I meant is 'I have virtually no feeling for you now'. Interestingly, some decode in following ways:
1. Shy dun wan accept nia
2. In due time she would FOR SURE
3. Friends mean CONFIRM got chance
Well there are no sure thing and if I were to really like you I won't be shy to accept at all. The fact that I don't accept is simply because I don't see the posibility of us taking in each other's craps. Well MAYBE in due time i would really fall for such a guy however if i were subjected to rushing the results out, then byebye.


I made my mistake in the past by going according to feelings instead of rationality. And i don't think that is anything to be ashame of. 'You ask a child not to touch fire because it'll burn you and hurt you' however how many child would really not touch it? Yet those who touched fire aren't stupid. At least they learnt the pain. However relationships is not like a pool of fire, where you could choose to or not to touch it(since love isnt supposed to be fully rational). One day, we've got to face it. And no matter how rational we try to be, chances of being hurt wouldn't be zero.


One day I would fall again, one day i might feel hurt again. Not now, not now. I know that I'm not ready yet, and I've got things to do for now.


Note: this post isn't meant for anyone specifically, just some late night feelings yeh (:

- freaking drilling sound is ON AGAIN. wahsiao. frm 10am allllll the way till 2 or 3pm. Z. and if u cant rmb hw i used to describe the drilling sound, u could even feel the vibration when u're seated on ur chair. freaky.


- no choice. cannot study at home aldy, since ZOMG ITS FREAKING LOUD. so i went mc. =.= and went home again after 1.5hr since its far too cold there. D: i wore my jacket aldy uh. boo. maybe its juz me because the guy sitting beside me, revising A lvl chem is wearing juz a singlet. so i tried to be funny and read my chem stuff as well. bt nope i felt colder. and its not the normal LT5 coldness(for jj students, u get what i mean by LT5 coldness hor), its worse than that. my hands went numb after writting for 15mins. ZAO LO!
btw i saw thimo at mc.
- thimo walks in.
- i waved
- he seem to ignore me and cont talking with his friends
- then he stares around, and walk pass me
- i cont to wave. and smile at him
- he seem to ignore me and cont talking with his friends
- me: THIMO! hellos.
- thimo: O.O wah i never see u sia
tsk tsk.
btw thimo's my classmate for one whole yr last yr. lol used to draw stuff on his arms with cyn, and he never seem to get angry. thimo's a nice thimo! bt he didnt know it was me! D: boooz!


- still drilling when i'm home. so left with 3 choices:
1. wear another jacket on top of that jacket n return mc
2. head down, take bus, go jp lib or starbucks
3. stay at home and hide under blanket and sleep since theres no way i could study in such exciting vibratory + loud environment.
1 is out since i dun wanna look like a idiot. 2 is out too since i dun wanna waste time travelling considering tt i'll be back home after 3 or 4 hours.
so yeh.




sian i wanna learn to swim properly yeh. damn embarassing swimming with chy e previous time. or do i juz nt know hw to swim straight. i seem to be swimming in circle lar. minus the extremely slow part bt hell hw did i managed to swim in circle. my acceleration perpendicular to the force i'm applying to e pool of water issit. lol liddat i managed a 0 workdone lei.
cool.

scary stuffs:
- wj asked me to teach her hw to score for GP bt my gp sucks. D:
- Z. i cant rmb whatever else's included in scary stuffs
- hy had been calling me scammer and xxxxxxx front of other ppl ARGH


happy stuffs:
- i got hy's unglam photo lo! and vid. wahahahaha.
- hey i put some new shoes on and everyone's smiling



hy and i saw mi lu bing ytd.
hy: OMG LYLYLY!!!!! OMGGGGGGG
me: what la
hy: IS THAT MI LU BING!
me: ??simi mi lu bing
hy: THAT GUY SITTING BESIDE U! HE MILUBINGGGG
me: wahsai u sure a nt. lol i nv see their faces before
hy: omgg is really him. seee!!! (showing me her googled mi lu bing face)
me: OMG ITS REALLY HIM. look exactly the same!!!!!
hy: ly. u my friend right. go take autograph for me.
me: bt i dun even know them. nv heard of their songs before lei!
hy: juz take
me: NO (actually i was about to help hy to take. till i realised i dun even haf a proper piece of paper. and hy pangseh me half way ZZZ!)


saw pri sch friend after hy pangseh me. wahh owned. i said hi to him he look at me and go ??? till i say i ly! :D yayy.


hw chy forced me outta my house today:
hy called: HELLO HELLO WAKE UP LE MARR
me: yawns. of coz. i juz showered lei. haven even dry myself properly
hy: ooo ehh i in sch lei! oi go starbuck mug k
me: wahsiao! so sudden? eh i haven even dry myself lei
hy: gif u 10min. wait for u at bus stop le hor. BYEBYE
freaking hy hung e call before i could say no.


speed at which my money runs away frm me is speeding up. shit i'm locking myself at home srsly. lol. jk bout $ part bt i'm falling sick so:
- i'm staying at home
- i'm nt going out
- i'm no whr else bt home